an unbelievable death, a heart that wont quit

i m tired of being a nice guy
tired of work, tired of
kicking myself in the ass
tired of heartache
tired with
trying for love
if I
try at all
tired of relying, tired of dreaming
because
most of the time, it doesn t help
tired of money, tired of shaving
sick and tired
tired of this, tired of that
I tell myself, just stop bitching for one
second you
you tiresome son-of-a-bitch
but
I don t listen, I keep going like
dirt filled rain, like, the roaring thunder sweeping across the plains
i m tired of this
it s just not worth it
I pray for an unbelievable death
but
my heart (the tiring thing) won t quit
it just will not give up
hoping for all these things
these dreams
this love
i m tired but it s always there
they sure don t make em like
they used to and
it s sick
sickening to be here right now
and to think, I almost let this
tiresome place
have my soul and screw it until the cows come home.